hi! to whoever is reading this blog post that i made.. so there.. well, this is a sad but true story about a girl who one day met a guy she thought of keeping for the rest of her life….
when they started to know each other, she said to herself "oh gosh, i want him to be my boyfriend, i think he’s a good guy" and so days and months passed and what she wanted was done. they became sweet lovers.
one day while checking out her messages, she saw a message from GUY#2. he was from CPAS<a social group where the girl and guy#2 met each other> it was a friendly message that started a conversation between the two.. replys were endless and from there started a different feeling. the girl started to like the other guy…
she was all guilty and started to tell herself "no,, stop it.. you must not like the other guy.. your boyfriend is such a jackpot and its very very rare to find loyal guys nowadays so give ur bf the same loyalty and love he deserves." so she fesses up to his bf admitting her feelings to guy#2, they settled it up and everything went on clear.. she started her loyalty days.
and christmas came.. such a beautiful season. a time where love abounds the most.. and YEAH,, it was impossible for guy#2 and the girl not to be communicating these days because they were friends and it was christmas time… during one of there conversations, guy#2 had touched her heart.. he said how sad he was because he couldnt greet her a ‘merry christmas’ personally. she admitted how she missed these conversations and they guy as well agreed. everything went overly sweet and the emotions of the girl for the guy came back but more intensified than ever.. you can say the feeling was mutual or maybe the girl was wishing it was an MU thingy.
but then it hit her, "i have to love and be loyal to my bf" and so sweetened days are over. everything she had for guy#2 was left in the dark,, it was finished.
a month passed and came valentines day. guy#2 texted her but no reply came. she totally ignored all kinds of temptations… even replying texts about the simplest matter.
another set of months came and everything was forgotten. she grew and learned to become cold to the other guy thinking it was the best thing to do.
a day came when she realized she didnt love his partner anymore and so the splitting up came and was done. it was a hard time. ending it became a sad event for both of them.. but it had more impact to the loyal bf. after 9mos of being attached to someone, she was now finally free. recovering from the split up.. she started to feel well and went on with her life ON HER OWN.
the other guy was there.. and she was constantly reminded of the things that made her kiligz.. the time when he fixed her hair, the time when he emailed her before defending their thesis, those petty quarrels they had, the "compliment" he said that made her mad because it dealt with her breasts, and all those times they had spent together in CPAS. but when she came back and became friendly to the other guy… everything was different. there were times he would not reply to anything, there were the presence of excuses and all became a colder relationship… it wasnt like before.
she was wondering, "what happened?" did i do something that made him act that way?"…. well duh?? YES you did something.. after ignoring him for almost half a year, do you expect someone to be that same person again? time changes things and i bet time made him think a lot. maybe it includes a change in the way he treats you.
poor girl. she became really sad about the situation because the other guy is starting to touch her heart again and now the condition of their friendship is different. it made her feel cheerless.. gloomy days were part of her weekends. everytime she saw the guy she falls hard and becomes nostalgic about the olden days.
she decides not to attend CPAS.. and from there recover from a broken heart..
perhaps fate had some lesson to put on the girl,, to make her realize that love is not a game.. its not a playful thing to fall in love, its like fire and sometimes its not a safe place to be.
but for now, she letting it all out. sitting and typing her story in a blog and maybe after this, she will feel a lil better…. yeah, how i wish. =(
the fans club ive been telling the people is about my indonesian neighbors who treats me as if i was a celebrity!! yeah!! its really giving me goosebumps sometimes because its sooo unusual.. but mostly all my emotions are happiness, delight, bliss and PLEASURE!! hahahah! 