can i make it through? =c
I’ve been laughing out loud minutes before our Philippine history class, and all the things I have reviewed are shrewd off my memory. Sir Banico had given us some minutes to review. Since we were seatmates, it has been a customary practice that whenever Miguel and I talked, we would laugh out with each other and make some “kulitan” and the like. It so happened that sir was observing us and made a comment about it. “Lagi talagang nagkukulitan tong c Swen at Miguel ano?.. ano bang meron?” I was so embarrassed that moment while everybody else were yelling out loud and making “tukso”… “wala lang, napansin ko lang kasi na ang sweet sweet nila twing history class”… still speechless and feeling really nervous Miguel finally said something.. “ano ba kayo sir, wala un…” sir Banico said in reply “wala lang, madalas kasing nagkakatuluyan ung mga tinutukso ko”.. again everybody were laughing and making “tukso. A few moments of silence and Miguel said something.. something that pierced my heart.. “..taken nako ni Lord, sir” Though I was smiling and feeling nervous, deep within me and deep within my soul.. i wanted to cry. It was such an awakening that made me sad after class. I never expected I would hear those words. Not too soon and still so unprepared. It was as if I was cleared off my doubts, my questions, and all the other things that has been bothering me for the past month. On my way home, I tried to stop the tears from falling.. I tried hard.. but when I came to my room.. all alone and dumb folded, tears started to fall.. tears out of sadness and distress.. I was crying so hard because I felt hurt and betrayed. Soon, questions bothered me.. Why did he have to be so sweet? Why this? Why that?? I wished hard that things weren’t that sweet and nice because everything now is clear that he wants to be a priest. He was such a jerk. I was so stupid. But despite all these, I still like the way he is, no questions… no doubts.=c
